laila.

You dont know how much Im struggling in pain everyday, how I forced to fake a smile so you think Im all okay, but deep down inside Im broken and all damaging hearts. You dont know how hard I try to hold my tears to not escape from my eyes until I have time to really get it all out. You dont know that I cry myself to sleep and get this terrible bag under my eyes that people dont even seem to notice. You dont know how it feels under your parents pressure to be this to be that but actually Im just not a thing of all. You dont know when its time to be around crowded and surronded by people and I feel damn alone and scared. You dont know that Im lacking of sleep everyday and I stayed up all night because I try to find way to put my feeling down to a paper so I may get less pain. You dont know how it feels when my head aching and got migrain like damn it hurts so mad because Im thinking too much. You dont know how it all feels, you will never know how it hurts badly like mad to...